Disappointment

Life will nv be the same at 52.. pple whom i once tot as friens dont seems to treat me as a frien anymore... am i asking too much frm them? or i'm jus plain jealous tat they're having all the fun but i'm not involved? if it's susposed to be a dnd tingy, then jus keep it to the pple in dnd... y bother to ask some of the non-relevant pple down n leave the rest out??

i hate staying back in hall on fri esp when it's the recess wk.. i want to be at home, wif my mom n sis.. i miss mummy n sister so much... i jus wan to spend every single minute now at home wif them... i dont noe if i shld be happy or sad that i wont be in 2 next sem.. happy to noe that i wont get to see those idiots.. y am i so affected by them? i guess they dont even care abt my feelings.. walking up the stairs, obviously being seen, not invited... i hate the feeling.. it makes me feel like a spoilt brat wanting all the attention.. maybe i tink too highly of myself... to them, i'm jus a fat gal which they can make fun of when they're bored... when they're having fun, there's dont need to be an entertainer there anymore... i'm pissed, i'm angry... wif them n myself... i'm not gg to be the gal tat they can teased whenever they like anymore... if u're not treating me as a frien, i guess i dont need to treat u as one too.. so i guess u have no rights to tease me...

if i'm not gg to stay in hall next sem, i wont be able to see meiying again... it's her that makes hall life wonderful... it's her that makes me noes that even when i'm staying at level 6 i was nv forgotten.. she stand by my side when i'm having problems as a blk rap, when i lost my jcrc election.. hall life will be so different w/o her... it's bcos of her i get to noe more friens in 52 if not, i'll still be the forgotten nerd staying at level 6.. thanx meiying!!

i guess i need a break frm all the cliquish tingy that's happening in 52 now... i shldnt put in so much of my feelings... hall life is still fun wif meiying, grace, jasmine, serene n liyean.. sch life 'll be fun wif all my clsmates... i used to tink u all r irritating fellows... but tinking of it, i tink u guys r the best... nv fail to entertain n encourage me when i'm sad... n leaving me out in any ting impt.. willing to share examination tips wif me..

i gues i'm still bless.. at least i noe that i have friens that realli care 4 me.. but to the stupis idiots, can u be as serious they are sincere in the friendship??